Friday 1 November 2019

The End

Dear All,

For those who enjoyed reading my blog and to those who still occasionally come looking for new content, I first of all want to say thank you to you all. 

Writing this blog has allowed me to engage with so many people, many at a distance but also many in person. And all I have had the pleasure of talking to have universally been lovely folk who enjoy this hobby as much as I do. This has spurred me on to better things with my hobby; painting, playing and general immersion wise. 

But I feel the need to formally draw a close on this blog as my life and therefore hobby change at an ever rapid pace. 

For those that don't know me intimately, I have several serious mental health issues, which anti-psychotic and anti-depressant medication (amongst a plethora of others medications and care for none-neurotypical conditions) can only impact so much. I have generally speaking deteriorated over the last few years for a whole mixture of reasons and the weight of personal, private and professional expectation has burdened me to the point of exhaustion. 

I need to take a long hard look at my life and my hobby and  make some drastic changes to bring everything down to a manageable level. Even if this means selling the majority of my hobby, just so I have a small amount of miniatures to paint and a small amount of people to interact with. 

This in no way reflects on those kind souls that have met me, even though I am silent most of the time, it is no indictment of you as people. It is simply a reflection of me hugging my knees to my chest and watching my phone buzz away, with a frightening level of mental paralysis to actively engage with the world. 

This may (or may not) come as a shock to those who have met me or seen me online. I will still be appearing online in videos and such, but I ask you to bear in mind that I (like many people with mental health issues) wear a mask on a daily basis with a well defined plan for each day and interaction, even down to specific conversations. 

Finally, I just want to reiterate the joy that this blog gave me for such a good period of time. I would not trade it for the world. And who knows, I may be back one day with something neat to show you. I simply cannot say. 

Friends, its been a blast. 

Peace out,